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  I glanced at the paper, then folded it and put it in my jeans pocket. “I appreciate your help.” By the time I got the sentence out, she’d turned away, already back at work on the report she was typing. I used my proffered hand to scratch my nose, feeling the way you do when you wave back at someone who turns out to be waving happily at someone else.

  On the way to my car, it occurred to me that the admissions officer at the convalescent home might be reluctant to give me information on Agnes Grey. If she was still a patient, I could probably get a room number and whip right in. If she’d been released, things might get trickier. Medical personnel aren’t as chatty as they used to be. Too many lawsuits over the right to privacy. Best not blow my chances, I thought.

  I went back to the Vagabond, where I unzipped the duffel and removed my all-purpose dress. I gave it a shake. This faithful garment is the only dress I own, but it goes anyplace. It’s black, collarless, with long sleeves and a zipper down the back, made of some slithery, miracle fabric that takes unlimited abuse. You can smush it, wad it up, sit on it, twist it, or roll it in a ball. The instant you release it, the material returns to its original state. I wasn’t even sure why I’d brought it – hoping for a hot night on the town, I suppose. I tossed it on the bed, along with my (slightly scuffy) low-heeled black shoes and some black panty hose. I took a three-minute shower and redid myself. Thirteen minutes later I was back in the car, looking like a grown-up, or so I hoped.

  The Rio Vista Convalescent Hospital was set in the middle of a residential area, an old two-story stucco building painted a tarnished-looking Navajo white. The property was surrounded by chain-link fence, wide gates standing open onto a parking lot. The place didn’t look like any hospital I’d ever seen. The grounds were flat, unlandscaped, largely sealed over in cracked asphalt on which cars were parked. As I approached the main entrance, I could see that the brittle blacktop was limned with faded circles and squares of some obscure sort. It wasn’t until I’d passed through the main doors and was standing in the foyer that I knew what I’d been looking at. A playground. This had once been a grade school. The lines had been laid out for foursquare and tetherball. The interior was nearly identical to the elementary school I’d attended. High ceilings, wood floors, the sort of lighting fixtures that look like small perfect moons. Across from me, a water fountain was still mounted on the wall, white porcelain with shiny chrome handles down low at kiddie height. Even the air smelled the same, like vegetable soup. For a moment, the past was palpable, laid over reality like a sheet of cellophane, blocking out everything. I experienced the same rush of anxiety I’d suffered every day of my youth. I hadn’t liked school. I’d always been overwhelmed by the dangers I sensed. Grade school was perilous. There were endless performances: tests in spelling, geography, and math, homework assignments, pop quizzes, and workbooks. Every activity was judged and criticized, graded and reviewed. The only subject I liked was music because you could look at the book, though sometimes, of course, you were compelled to stand up and sing all by yourself, which was death. The other kids were even worse than the work itself. I was small for my age, always vulnerable to attack. My classmates were sly and treacherous, given to all sorts of wicked plots they learned from TV. And who would protect me from their villainy? Teachers were no help. If I got upset, they would stoop down to my level and their faces would fill my field of vision like rogue planets about to crash into earth. Looking back on it, I can see how I must have worried them. I was the kind of kid who, for no apparent reason, wept piteously or threw up on myself. On an especially scary day, I sometimes did both. By fifth grade, I was in trouble almost constantly. I wasn’t rebellious – I was too timid for that – but I did disobey the rules. After lunch, for instance, I would hide in the girls’ rest room instead of going back to class. I longed to be expelled, imagining somehow that I could be free of school forever if they’d just kick me out. All my behavior netted me were trips to the office, or endless hours in a little chair placed in the hall. A public scourging, in effect. My aunt would swoop down on the principal, an avenging angel, raising six kinds of hell that I should be subjected to such abuse. Actually, the first time I got the hall penalty, I was mortified, but after that, I liked it pretty well. It was quiet. I got to be alone. Nobody asked me questions or made me write on the board. Between classes, the other kids hardly looked at me, embarrassed on my behalf.

  “Miss?”

  I glanced up. A woman in a nurse’s uniform was staring at me. I focused on my surroundings. I could see now that the corridor was populated with wheelchairs. Everyone was old and broken and bent. Some stared dully at the floor and some made mewing sounds. One woman repeated endlessly the same quarrelsome request: “Someone let me out of here. Someone let me up. Someone let me out of here…”

  “I’m looking for Agnes Grey.”

  “Patient or employee?”

  “A patient. At least she was a couple of months back.”

  “Try administration.” She indicated the offices to my right. I collected myself, blanking out the sight of the feeble and infirm. Maybe life is just a straight shot from the horrors of grade school to the horrors of the nursing home.

  The administration offices were housed in makeshift quarters where the principal’s office had probably been once upon a time. A portion of the large central hallway had been annexed and was now enclosed in glass, providing a small reception area, which was furnished with a wooden bench. I waited at the counter until a woman emerged from the inner office with an armload of files. She caught sight of me and veered in my direction with a public-relations smile. “May I help you?”

  “I hope so,” I said. “I’m looking for a woman named Agnes Grey. I understand she was a patient here a few months ago.”

  The woman hesitated briefly and then said, “May I ask what this is in connection with?”

  I took a chance on the truth, never guessing how popular I was going to be as a consequence. I gave her my card and then recited my tale of Irene Gersh and how she’d asked me to determine her mother’s whereabouts, ending with the oft-repeated query: “Do you happen to know where she is at this point?”

  She blinked at me for a moment. Some interior process caused a transformation in her face, but I hadn’t the faintest idea how it related to my request. “Would you excuse me, please?”

  “Sure.”

  She moved into the inner office and emerged a moment later with a second woman, who introduced herself as Mrs. Elsie Haynes, administrator of the facility. She was probably in her sixties, rotund, with a hairstyle that was whisker-short along the neck and topped by a toupee of ginger-colored curls. This made her face appear too large for her head. She was, however, smiling at me most pleasantly. “Miss Millhone, how very nice,” she said, holding out her hands. The handshake consisted of her making a hand sandwich with my right hand as the lunch meat. “I’m Mrs. Haynes, but you must call me Elsie. Now how can we be of help?”

  This was worrisome. I usually don’t get such receptions in my line of work. “Nice to meet you,” I said. “I’m trying to locate a woman named Agnes Grey. I understand she was transferred here from Pioneers.”

  “That’s correct. Mrs. Grey has been with us since early March. I’m sure you’ll want to see her, so I’ve asked the floor supervisor to join us. She’ll take you up to Mrs. Grey’s room.”

  “Great. I’d appreciate that. Frankly, I didn’t expect to find her here. I guess I thought she’d be out by now. Is she doing okay?”

  “Oh my, yes. She’s considerably better… quite well… but we have been concerned about continued care. We can’t release a patient who has no place to go. As nearly as we can tell, Mrs. Grey doesn’t have a permanent address and she’s never admitted to having any next of kin. We’re delighted to hear that she has relatives living in the state. I’m sure you’ll want to notify Mrs. Gersh and make arrangements to have her transferred to a comparable facility in Santa Teresa.”

  Ahh. I felt myself
nodding. Her MediCal benefits were running out. I tried a public-relations smile of my own, unwilling to commit Irene Gersh to anything. “I’m not sure what Mrs. Gersh will want to do. I told her I’d call as soon as I found out what was going on. She’ll probably need to talk to you before she makes any decisions, but I’m assuming she’ll ask me to drive Agnes back to Santa Teresa with me.”

  She and her assistant exchanged a quick look.

  “Is there a problem with that?”

  “Well, no,” she said. Her gaze shifted to the doorway. “Here’s Mrs. Renquist, the ward supervisor. I think she’s the person you should properly discuss this with.”

  We went through another round of introductions and explanations. Mrs. Renquist was perhaps forty-five, thin and tanned, with a wide, good-natured mouth and the dusky, lined complexion of a smoker. Her dark auburn hair was pulled back in a knot shaped like a doughnut, probably supported by one of those squishy nylon devices they sell at Woolworth’s. The three women seemed to hover about me like secular nuns, full of murmurs and reassurances. Within minutes, Mrs. Renquist and I were out in the corridor, heading toward the ward.

  Chapter 5

  *

  I heard Agnes Grey before I ever laid eyes on her. Mrs. Renquist and I had climbed the wide curving stairs to the second floor. We proceeded down the upper hallway without saying much. The character of the grade school was still oddly evident, in spite of the fact that extensive remodeling had been done to accommodate current use. The former classrooms had been quite large, with wide, multipaned windows stretching almost ceiling to floor. Light streamed in through glass embedded with chicken wire. The woodwork had been left in its original state, varnished oak aged to a glossy russet shade. Up here, the worn wood floors had been covered with mottled white vinyl tiles and the once spacious rooms had been partitioned into cubicles, containing two beds each. The walls were painted in shades of pale green and blue. The place was clean, if impersonal, the air perfumed with ultimate body functions gone sour. Old people were visible everywhere, in beds, in wheelchairs, on gurneys, huddled on hard wooden benches in the wide corridor; idle, insulated from their surroundings by senses that had shut down over the years. They seemed as motionless as plants, resigned to infrequent watering. Anyone would wither under such a regimen: no exercise, no air, no sunlight. They had outlived not only friends and family, but most illnesses, so that at eighty and ninety, they seemed untouchable, singled out to endure, without relief, a life that stretched into yawning eternity.

  We passed a crafts room where six women sat around a table, making potholders out of nylon loops woven on red metal frames. Their efforts were as misshapen as mine had been when I was five. I never liked doing that shit the first tune around and I didn’t look forward to having to do it again at the end of my days. Maybe I’d get lucky and be struck down by a beer truck before I was forced into such ignominy.

  The recreation room was evidently just ahead, as I’d picked up the blast of a television set turned up loud enough for failing ears, a PBS documentary by the sound of it. The banging and shrieking suggested tribal rites somewhere in a culture not given to quietude. We turned left into a six-bed ward where a series of curtains were all that separated one patient from the next. At the far end of the room, like the origins of the Nile, I could see the source of the uproar. It wasn’t a television set at all. Without even asking, I knew this was Agnes. She was stark naked, dancing a dirty boogie on the bed while she accompanied herself by banging on a bedpan with a spoon. She was tall and thin, bald everyplace except her bony head, which was enveloped in an aureole of wispy white fuzz. Malnutrition had distended her belly, leaving her long limbs skeletal.

  The lower portion of her face had collapsed on itself, jaw drawn up close to her nose in the absence of intervening teeth. She had no visible lips and the truncated shape of her skull gave her the look of some long-legged, gangly bird with a gaping beak. She was squawking like an ostrich, her bright, black eyes snapping from point to point. The minute she caught sight of us, she fired the bedpan in our direction like a heat-seeking missile. She seemed to be having the tune of her life. A nurse’s aide, maybe twenty years old, stood by helplessly. Clearly, her training had never prepared her for the likes of this one.

  Mrs. Renquist approached Agnes matter-of-factly, pausing only once to pat the hand of the woman in the next bed who seemed to be praying feverishly for Jesus to take her very soon. Meanwhile, Agnes, having asserted herself, was content to march around on the bedcovers saluting the other patients. To me, it looked like a wonderful form of indoor exercise. Her behavior seemed far healthier than the passivity of her ward-mates, some of whom simply lay in moaning misery. Agnes had probably been a hell-raiser all her life, and her style, in old age, hadn’t changed a whit.

  “You have a visitor, Mrs. Grey.”

  “What?”

  “You have a visitor.”

  Agnes paused, peering at me. Her tongue crept into view and then disappeared again. “Who’s this?” Her voice was hoarse from screeching. Mrs. Renquist held out a hand to her, helping Agnes down off the bed. The nurse’s aide took a clean gown from the nightstand. Mrs. Renquist shook it out and draped it around Agnes’s scrawny shoulders, pushing her arms into the sleeves. Agnes submitted with the complaisance of a baby, her rheumy-eyed attention still focused on me. Her skin was speckled with color: pale brown maculae, patches of rose and white, knotty blue veins, crusty places where healing cuts formed fiery lines of red. The epidermal tissue was so thin I half-expected to see the pale gray shapes of internal organs, like those visible on a newly hatched bird. What is it about aging that takes us right back to birth? She smelled sooty and dense, a combination of dried urine and old gym socks. Right away, I started revising the notion of driving back to Santa Teresa in the same tiny car with her. The aide excused herself with a murmur and made a hasty getaway.

  I held out a hand politely. “Hello, Agnes. I’m Kinsey Millhone.”

  “Hah?”

  Mrs. Renquist leaned close to Agnes and hollered my name so loud that two other old ladies on the ward woke up and began to make quacking sounds. “Kinsey Millhone. She’s a friend of your daughter’s. “

  Agnes drew back, giving me a suspicious look. “Who?”

  “Irene,” I yelled.

  “Who asked you?” Agnes shot back, peevishly. She began to work her lips mechanically, as if tasting something she’d eaten fifty years before.

  Mrs. Renquist repeated the information, enunciating with care. I could see Agnes withdraw. A veil of simplicity seemed to cover her bright gaze and she launched abruptly into a dialogue with herself that made no sense whatever. “Keep hush. Do not say a word. Well, I can if I want. No, you can’t. Danger, danger, ooo hush, plenty, plenty. Don’t even give a hint…” She began a warbling rendition of “Good Night, Irene.”

  Mrs. Renquist rolled her eyes and a short, impatient sigh escaped. “She pulls this when she doesn’t feel like doing what you want,” she said. “She’ll snap out of it.”

  We waited for a moment. Agnes had added gestures and her tone was argumentative. She’d adopted the quarrelsome air of someone in a supermarket express line when the customer at the register tries to cash a paycheck. Whatever universe she’d been transported to, it did not include us.

  I drew Mrs. Renquist aside and lowered my voice. “Why don’t we leave her alone for the time being,” I said. “I’m going to have to put a call through to Mrs. Gersh anyway and ask her what she wants done. There’s no point in upsetting her mother any more than we have to.”

  “Well, it’s whatever you want,” Mrs. Renquist said. “She’s just being ornery. Do you want to use the office phone?”

  “I’ll call from the motel.”

  “Be sure we know how to get in touch with you,” she said, with a faint note of uneasiness. I could see a hint of panic in her eyes at the notion that I might leave town without making arrangements for Agnes’s removal.

  “I’ll leave the motel n
umber with Mrs. Haynes.”

  I drove back to the Vagabond, where I put in a call first to Sergeant Pokrass at the sheriff’s department, advising her that Agnes Grey had indeed turned up.

  Then I placed the call to Irene Gersh and filled her in on her mother’s circumstances. My report was greeted with dead silence. I waited, listening to her breathe in my ear.

  “I suppose I better talk to Clyde,” she said finally. She did not sound happy at having to do this and I could only imagine what Clyde’s reaction would be.

  “What do you want me to do in the meantime?” I asked.

  “Just stay there, if you would. I’ll give Clyde a call at the office and get back to you as soon as possible, but it probably won’t be till around suppertime. I’d appreciate it if you’d drive back out to the Slabs and put a padlock on Mother’s door.”

  “What good is that going to do?” I said. “The minute I’m gone, the little turds will break in. The louvers in one window are already gone. Frustrate these kids and they’ll tear the place apart.”

  “It sounds like they’ve already done that.”

  “Well, true, but there’s no point making life any more difficult.”

  “I don’t care. I hate the idea of trespassers and I won’t abandon the place. She may still have personal belongings on the premises. Besides, she might want to go back when she’s feeling like herself again. Did you talk to the sheriff? Surely there’s some way to patrol the area.”

  “I don’t see how. You know the situation better than I do. You’d have to have an armed guard to keep squatters out and what’s the point? That trailer’s already been trashed.”